He·ro (n):Transcending Lover

I'm Hayley Fellenbaum. When you first meet me I usually always have a smile on. I'm very friendly and love to meet new people. I am outgoing, spontaneous, and optimistic. I love living life on the edge, always looking for adventure and a good time. I'm always with family and friends. They are what keep me going. I'm a nerdy kind of girl. I like school, its easy to me. My favorite subjects are science and math. My passions in life are photography, acting, and volleyball. When I see something different, beautiful, unusual, special,or just something that is just too much for words to describe, I capture it in a photo. I like to take pictures of mostly landscape, sunsets and the world around us. Acting is something I like to do also. Its like being a kid again, getting to pretend (act) like your someone else. I am an athlete. I like getting aggressive and fight to win. Volleyball is the best sport. To work and play as a team to win the game is a great feeling. I also have played soccer for 7 years, track 2 years, basketball 2 years, gymnastics 1 year, and dance half a year. In 2006 I was dignosed with type 1 diabetes, which changed my life in a big way. In all, everything I have been through has made me who I am today, Hayley Fellenbaum!

The Quest of Life

"Through the up's and down's I'm always going to come out strong." My life is basically God, family, friends, school,and insulin shots 4 times a day. In January 2006 life for me went through a drastic change. I was diagnosed with type 1 Diabetes, this putting a huge road block in my life. It was like getting a new label stuck on to you forever. Now knowing that I couldn't eat, work out, or live life the same way I use to. I now have to check my bloodsugars 4 to 6 times a day, and having to take at least 4 insulin shots a day. Diabetes turned my life upside down. To know I was stuck with diabetes for the rest of my life, at first it made a me sad to know that I have a higher risk of dying and will later in life possiblely have health problems. I am learning more and more about diabetes every day. Also better ways to keep myself healthy and my bloodsugars down to a good range. Because I plan on living a peaceful, healthy, long life with my diabetes. To beat out my diabetes, I look at the positive things about having it. Like, it makes me unique, keeps me from doing those bad things in life(drinking, smoking, and drugs), and in a way its like being on a personal life long diet! By my experience and story about living with type 1 diabetes I hope to influence other diabetics to do the same and look at the positive and push away the negatives. I know Diabetes is not going to standing in the way of me living my long, happy life.

The Wise Old Woman, I Call My Mom

Through the THICK and the thin times in my life my Mom has always been there for me to lean on. She is there when I need her the most and through difficult times. She gives me advice and lessons about life when I need it and even when I don't want it, but secretly need it. She gives me everything I could ever ask for, love, shelter, knowledge, strength, and life. My mom has guided me through life ever since I was born. From when she first helped me walk to tying my shoes, to holding my hand on the first day of school. She has been crusing along side of me the whole way. Even when I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes, my mom stayed with me the whole time at the hospital. She cried with me, smiled with me, and strengthened me. My mom is that wise ol' mentor that passes down her knowledge to me so that I may better myself in life. She is always going to be there, by my side, with me taking one step at a time in my journey of life!

Just an A.D.D Moment

Ever since first grade I was diagnosed with A.D.D, attention deficit disorder, which means I have a hard time focusing and paying attention. This disorder makes learning and focusing in school difficult. I would always get bad grades and get in trouble for disrupting the class. In first grade I remember having these clothes pins with are names on them on this poster which went from green to yellow, to orange and red being the worst. They would start in the green but everytime you got in trouble you would have to move it down. One day I got in trouble 5 times in less then 15 minutes. So my teacher called my mom and confronted her about the possibility of me having a.d.d. The doctor then put me on adderall, a pill that was going to help me focus. Having to take this new pill my attitude and personality changed for the better. I am now very well organized and responsible. Also I have been on the A honor-roll ever since I started taking my adderall. I have over come and conquered my a.d.d.

Sweet, Yummy, Sugary Goodness, Gone Bad

Pretty much anything and everything that is sweet, sugary, sour, chewy, crunchy, chocolate-y, rich, yummy, or covered in sugar, I love to eat. Candy, cake, cookies, chocolate, ice cream, and pie stands in my way constantly from reaching my goals. Being diabetic sweets are not the best things to eat. The goal is to keep your blood sugar at a normal range. However these sugary things raise our blood sugars up into bad and high numbers. Also they keep me from losing weight and hard to keep my cute figure. By gaining self control I can beat and ultimately defeat sugary sweets, so I can reach my goals.

That April Fools Trickster

My dad was born on April 1st, making him the jokester man. He lives up to his name, he is what keeps the humor in my life. He is my personal dose of laughing gas. He has just a natural funny personality, thats what I love the most about him. He also cheers me up in the weirdest ways. Like if I am upset, sad, or angry, from something that happened his question will be, "Did it kill you to go through it?" My answer is always no. He then tells me, "Well then your still alive and well to take on even more troubles coming your way." Thought he doesn't show me the sweet sympathy, goo goo, blah blah stuff, he knows by joking with me I forget about the problems and move on. He keeps my life bright and full of laughter, even when the times are dark. 

Icky, Nasty, Creppy, Crawlers

My monster in life, is spiders. I fear little, big, medium, titty bitty, small, huge, any type of spiders. I fear they will crawl all over me when I'm asleep and lay their nasty freaky egg nest in my hair and bit me all over. I hate everything about them, their creepy eight legs, wierd bodies, and their gross sticky webs. Spiders stand in the way of me living almost all the time. They are an obstacle I am slowly learning to overcome. I have to stay strong and beat out the fear of spiders so I can go on with my life.

Doubts of the Unfound

I want and struggle for a cure for type 1 diabetes. Living with diabetes is hard but a cure, would make life go back to normal. For years and years people have been raising money and searching for that one special cure. I have gone to many JDRF Walk for the Cure, fun runs. These are events held for diabetics, their families, and anyone that wants to give a donation to JDRF, Junior Diabetes Research Foundation, to help find a cure and to help millions of kids all around. Many years I have given money but no cure has been found. I struggle with doubt that there will never be and I will be living with this disease for the rest of my life. I have a hard time keeping my hopes up for a chance of a better life. Having this cure for diabetes would change all that.

Amigas for Life

The people I can always trust and know they will with no doubt have my back is the Athletic Girls. They are the ones I can tell my secrets to and know they will keep them safe. The girls I can be my total self around and not be laughed at but with. They know what makes me sad, mad, angry, and happy. Also how to cheer me up or in other words, make my day. We help each other push through hard times and are there for one another when we're down on ourselves.  

We all stand strong together on the volleyball court and off.

Pushing It to the Limit

Volleyball testes me physically and mentally, but I love the game anyways. To play volleyball is physically draining. I'm in constant motion, moving back and forward, passing, hitting, and setting. It keeps me physically fit. You have to be always on your toes and ready for anything and everything that comes your way, so you don't mess up for the team. Volleyball pushes me to the limit. When I want to quit because I'm out of breathe or tired, I got to think, suck it up and push to finish 1st. That's playing mental volleyball. You also have to be mentally fit to play volleyball. For when the volleyball is coming my way I have to be thinking of the smartest way to receive the ball. To get the best pass, set, or hit. By being physically and mentally fit the challenges volleyball brings are easy. It leads to being the BEST in the sport I love to do. However more important is I can do my best and have pride knowing that I gave it my all in winning victory.

Love Hurts

Though I might seem all happy and smiley on the outside, sometimes if you look on the inside I'm not the same. I suffer an unhealed wound. Ever since I got lied and cheated on by a person, which I'm not naming, I cared deeply about, I could never look or have the same trust in them again. It hurt me so bad to know that someone that I put full trust in, would go behide my back and just lie about everything. The worst part is I could see it coming, and still let it come and effect me more than it effected them. I tell myself and try to believe that they will change, but when no one is around and I'm alone I know deep down that I can't ever completely forgive them, or get over the fact that it happened!